Today is day 30 of slightly reduced anti-depressants. I got some digital micro scales and cut 10% of the 150mg Effexor I had been on, measuring new doses of 135mg.
Day 1 didn’t bring any noticeable change.
Day 2 was horrible – dizziness, nausea, fear, dry mouth, fatigue, anxiety, hot ears, very wriggly feet in bed.
Days 3, 4 and 5 were much better. The main symptoms were dizziness, hot ears and tiredness.
Over the month the severity of the symptoms has swung back and forward, so I never really know what a day will be like until I’m in it. Mostly I can count on being exhausted, dizzy and prone to getting overwhelmed.
In the last few days I think I’m seeing an overall improvement. I’m sleeping better (having only vivid dreams as opposed to nightmares), and the dizziness is milder. I’m keeping a daily check-list of symptoms so I can monitor how I’m doing.
I think the 10% cut was too big for my already sensitised nervous system. My plan is to let the symptoms settle a bit more then give myself a month of feeling rested. Then I’ll make a much smaller cut, maybe 1%, and see how that goes. Smaller but more frequent cuts are reported to be much gentler.
I feel life has taken me right back to the core of who I am, in order to set up a (hopefully) sound structure. So each day I go slow, with the focus of treating me well and treating my family well. That’s it really, nothing too complicated. A bit like a child getting the basics right. Later I can add other stuff in.